| Real Blog is over that a' way |
[Jun. 24th, 2005|07:14 pm] |
Hello…
I just realized I posted here a few times, and one was a big deal.
Anyway, I have in the past few months started a real blog at my own site…
http://www.owlboy.com/
So I copied those few posts I made here to it, and am making this post to let anyone who *might* happen onto this page that I actually post at owlboy.com |
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| Spiraling out of control? |
[Sep. 28th, 2004|06:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | just here | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Home By The Sea/Second Home By The Sea - Genesis | ] |
I gave my 2 weeks notice at Ace today.
Yeah, after 3 years I decided I need to go somewhere else.
I also made an appointment to go to the Physiologist again. Tomorrow. Lets see if it can help this time.
On a lighter note: I have a new G5, sold my Powerbook and iMac G4 to get it. Works great! World of Warcraft kicks but on it. |
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| Well. |
[Sep. 5th, 2004|05:19 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
Well, I decided to skip this semester again. I shall be switching to Visual Communications next semester, and leaving Graphic Design unfinished.
I am glad I took the Graphic Desgin courses I did, they have taught be so much. Though I think I would be happier with Vicom over Graphic design.
I skipped work today too, left them short. I feel so bad about it. I have no ambition. blah.
::pops a zoloft:: its so silly to take pills just cuz your sad.
Oh yeah, and this is not my type of music... it just happens to be on.
 Tipsy - J-Kwon |
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| erm... |
[Aug. 27th, 2004|01:17 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | Sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Coast to Coast AM | ] |
I need to go to bed...
I wonder how LJ can afford to do so much for free, with no banners.
I played Myth for awhile tonight, great fun, saw some old friends. |
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| First Post. |
[Aug. 23rd, 2004|02:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  worried | ] |
Wow. I was dropped from all my classes. I had to go and get back in them, and then do a disbursement, to pay $100 of my tuition this semester ($75, $25 was the fee to do so).
I don't know how I will be paying for this. I know my parents want to help, but I don't know how able they are at the moment.
Then in class, Gargan was talking about taking initiative, and being responsible for my education, and learning more on my own. And about all these people who are so good in the field, and me knowing I am not that good, at at least thinking that.
I worry too much. About many things. Sometimes I think its that I just care about to many things, I am the person who cares when someone says "Who cares?!"
I dunno. and then I worry about worrying to much.
I may be in the wrong field... Graphic Design requires you to put your work out for viewing. And people will criticize it. I worry so much about not being liked, or, as I told Tim the other night in my drunken "complain about everything that is causing you to be depressed" tirade. I worry about not being liked, and imposing that on those who do not like me. That is sooo crippling. And I should, as some, just say "Fuckem." and move on.
When I consider doing so, I worry I am burning a bridge I may need in the future. I worry it would be the wrong choice to say "Fuckem." I am so indecisive, it took me 10 mins to decide what to get for lunch today. I wondered around in PDQ, trying to decide what to get.
"Chips? hmm ok, regular ones? or something different. Something new..." I thought, so I picked some Wheat Puffed Chili and lime things. They suck. I made a bad choice there, and should have just gone with plain chips, since I know that those taste ok. Things like that just reinforce my want to pick the right thing, or do the right thing, I don't want to be stuck with the wrong decision, or bother anyone with that decision.
I even am now looking around the library, worrying someone is reading this... as I type it. Dunno why, it will be on the net soon in the public anyway. arrgghh.
Back to school... making the right choice, caring... Gargan wants us to think about the future, and portfolio class, and having projects ready for it, and have many come from this class. I mean, it seems like everyone else always just "gets though the classes as they come" and don't look ahead at what is next. Even in the class assignments. DOn't do things ahead of time. arg. Not that I do that, but I feel like I should be, or that there is something I am missing or forgetting. I keep checking the clock, and my schedule to make sure my next class is really at 5:30pm, and I am 2 hours away right now... I mean, I am not even sure it is at 5:30pm... ::checking:: Yup, 5:30pm to 8:20pm.
I dunno, this all just seems to be to much worry, and anxiety. That others don't *seem* to have. And then I see these guys who seem to not have this worry, and care about their future or life, yet they seem to find a girl, a job, and get the classes done. And they do that while being jerks, not caring what others think, and just wanting things from people to get them through with out anything being given back in return.
And the having a girlfriend thing depresses me the most. Those jerks seem to be able to a girlfriend, even though they are dicks and just want a piece of ass.
Oy, I just want a companion, not a piece of ass... I mean that would be nice too, but that can't be all of it.
And I just can't seem to figure it out though. I can't talk to anyone I might be interested in, and those I know (or think) I have no chance with, I can talk with just fine.
Bah.
Staring At the Sun - Simple Kid |
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